Climbing To The Light

(11/7/08) Yesterday I did something which ashamedly I haven't done in about a decade. I went to the cemetery to visit my mom and dad. I laid on the grass next to their tombstone and gazed at the sunset and asked my parents, "Why is this happening?"

After having such a beautiful wedding, filled with love and happiness, with an amazing honeymoon cruise directly following, it was a heart-wrenching shock to be pulled abruptly out of newly-wed bliss two days later to a Yes on 8 win. For the first time in US history, rights have been stripped away from a minority group, for which I am part, while at the same time, chickens (God bless them) received more rights. The ground I stood on somehow no longer felt solid, and it was not from post sea legs from the cruise.

It disturbs me that a group that is suppose to teach love, would resort to lies and deceit to convince over half of California that their families would be threatened if gays continued to marry, that their children would be forced to listen to the story of how the two princes lived happily ever after, and that churches would lose their tax-exempt status by not marrying gays. Their evil strategy worked. The image of Prince Charming marrying Prince Charming could not get out their minds despite school authorities denouncing this myth.

As the sun set over Bonita Hills, a nurturing calm enveloped me. I knew from that point on, that something amazing and wonderful was going to happen soon. We may have lost this battle, but the war for equality will be won. There will be a struggle, but love will prevail. Stand tall. Be proud. Become involved.

After the sun set, I said good bye to my parents. While walking down the grassy hill to my car, I thought of my mom and her last three painful months battling breast cancer. During that time, one of my senior courses was Revolution and Social Change. A few days after watching my mother take her last breath, I took the final, and wrote this at the end of the final. I don't know why I did. It just seemed appropriate then as it does now. It's part of the lyrics to the finale of the musicale Les Miserables...

Do you hear the people sing
Lost in the valley of the night?
It is the music of a people
Who are climbing to the light.

For the wretched of the earth
There is a flame that never dies.
Even the darkest night will end
And the sun will rise.

Will you join in our crusade?
Who will be strong and stand with me?
Somewhere beyond the barricade
Is there a world you long to see?
Do you hear the people sing?
Say, do you hear the distant drums?
It is the future that they bring
When tomorrow comes...
Tomorrow comes!